You Can Lie To The Ppl Sometimes, But You Can't Lie To Them All The Time

Ok I said I wouldn't be back until November but I had to address this ASAP, like Beanie is taking shots at Jay-Z I knew it was only a matter of time til something like this happened. I know many people are going to be like 'o Sieg is just mad because Jay is gettin gwop' or 'Sieg should've said something from now' well I disagree with all those comments. One, because I feel that people throw the word 'hatin' and 'mad' like water so it has no relevance to me anymore and second, nobody knows the whole reasoning behind Sieg's diss, (personally it's not a diss, dumb ppl like to hype up something like its beef when it really aint) because the demise of the whole Rocafella has always been skecthy in my opinion and now with these conspiracy talks I'm starting to really look at Jay a certain way. Anywho this is going to be the subject of conversation for the next couple of days maybe weeks even months because let's face it every time someone tried to get at Jay Siegel was the enforcer (hence the name broadstreet bully). And not to long ago even 50 mentioned it in an interview about Jay not being able to fight his own battles that's why people are way too comfortable around him. For once I actually agree with dude! That usually never happens.

So if it is the case that Siegel use to fight all of Jay's battles this is one call that Jigga is going to have to answer. This is not about who is a better lyricist but it's about credibility and the assassination of character, this is beyond trying to prove who is better than who. I don't know what Jay was thinking, because if it's a true story he was fuckin mans over, I don't know how he didn't expect it coming (personally I thought it would've been sooner but meh). I guess some things in life jus have their timing and this was the time that people like Jay were slowly going to get exposed. I don't know it's a whole bunch of speculation because this is just one record and its styll fresh, so there is no telling where this could go. But if I were Jay I would be very wary about all the things I do. The funny thing is when Dame was calling Jay a shady human being nobody believed him because his dumbass talked to much, now that Sieg is saying it it's startin to have some merit. As I continue to think about it I wonder what is going to come about will Jay say something will Jay send Bleek to get at Sieg or J.Cole or somebody? Hmmm we will see how those work out because one Bleek doesn't want to be in Jay's "shadow" therefor if he were to hop on a track and say something to Sieg with put a hole into what he is trying to do. J.Cole is quite fresh so if he doesnt want any issues he will jus allow the whole thing and let Jay handle it

In conclusion all I have to say is this, this is not a diss record to test rhyme skills or better metaphors, these are people lives. Like something can be said and everything will change a situation completely, but I don't know I would like to see how it turns out because this is going to be quite interesting to see on the reals. So if you are wondering who am I riding for I say Sieg, not because he is the underdog but because u can tell although he is pissed as all heck, he is a man scorn because he thought he could trust his friends but the sad truth is when money gets in the way and people get to big for their bridges they tend to get out of control and not remember who they use to be or what they wanted to be.

So Like Rick Ross' Album Says This Is DEEPER THAN RAP

Speak Your Mind, But Hold That Thought!

Je'Torr & Beautiifash & Co.

Jeantel Torrence, what can I say about her? This girl is like my big sister, I love her to death and I am always there to support her. She resides in California and she is a young designer on the come up. I like to keep it real 100 with my blogs, so you know I am not boosting. I don't gas people's heads up nor do I hate I give praises and respects where it's due. But going on, Jeantel is very talented and you can tell through her designs in women handbags and clothing. Me personally, I feel that her designs absolutely ridic and I'm Still waiting on my handbag (wink wink free plug in LMAO) but seriously I need everybody to check out her blog jetorr.blogspot.com and watch this girl track her success to the top, believe me to know that you were apart of someone's success is a good thing. Also check out her myspace www.myspace.com/jetorr and see some of her collections. Here are a few pics from her collection [plz don't steal her designs because if I find you I will HURT you :):






Jeantel free plug in I want my purse ASAP bahahahahahaha I joke! Get her stuff, they are really cute!

I Wanna Live In Karla's Closet

I don't know if I would call my self the most stylish person or what not but I have alot of influences around me that make me to be a stylish girl. As I said in one of my past notes, style has to be something that comes natural but at the same time a craft that kind of makes up your personality. So that is why I give it up to girls like Karla of Karla's closet. This lady is probably the most fashionable I have seen in a very long time, she inspires me to really be in search of my own style and go against the grain. She takes women's fashion to a whole 'nother level and for that I salute her. She is an everyday girl that has fashion spunk to last her for the next 50 years (i don't even know if I am exaggerating) but I feel that she is one of the best and from reading her blog she seems like a really nice person and she is quite funny. Karla can't do nooooo wrong and I stand by that comment 110%. Here goes some of my favorite picks out of her closet:






Karla if you ever see this post I would love to interview on my blog you are like the greatest! LOL [Sheesh I Sound Like A Groupie, Meh Tis Okay!]

I'm an idiot how could I forget visit her blog: karlascloset.blogspot.com

Poetry Corner: You Are The Prototype

So I just finished cleaning my room (for the most part) and I was listening to Blake Carrington's mixtape and his freestyle on the Protoype beat (Andre 3000) inspired me to write a poem this is coming off the dome so mind some of the fuckery.

Good Morning Your Breakfast Is On The Table
I Watch You As You Eat I Love Us Being Stable
When I Look Into Your Eyes I See The Truth No Fables
You Enable Me To Do Better Even Through The Stormy Weather
There Is Nothing Like You && Me Together

I Love Your Physical, I Love Your Shape
From The Your Head To Your Toes to Your Nape
I Am Intrigued By Your Eyes That See Through My Soul
And Hands So Masculine But Tender Enough To Hold
God Had Me In Mind When He Made Your Mold

Kiss My Neck, Bite My Ear
Tell Me All The Sweet Things That I Wanna Hear
Lay Me On My Back, You Can Pull My Hair
You Laugh, I Chuckle The Moment Not Erased
When You Touch Me I'm In A Different Space

I'm Intrigued By Your Mind, You Were Worth The Search
You Are The Right Find, And I Am Blessed That Your Mine
Always Coming With The Real Never With The Drama
One Day I Hope To Be Your Baby Momma, But More Your Wife
With You I Want To Spend My Life, In Total Bliss
I Don't Think It Can Get Better Than This

My Love For You, No One Can Ever Fathom
I Know Sometimes Us Together Seems Random
But I Assure You That I Will Stay Down, When No One's Around
I Am Your Girl And You Are My Man And No One Matters
I Will Be Patient And I Will Be Kind And You Will Never Be Left Behind
I Walk With You, I Breath With You, I See With You, & I Am In Love With You

You Are The Prototype, I Wanna Have Your Seed
You Are The Prototype, You Are All I Need
If This Is Heaven I Don't Wanna Come Down
You Are The Prototype I'm Glad You're Found

Dedicated To My Soulmate

Too bad this isn't real life. . .*womp womp* LOL But nonetheless love is beautiful so embrace it.


Speak Your Mind, But Hold That Thought!

The Block Is Hot! Cash Money [1997-2000]

So I was on youtube last night and I was having THE most nostalgic moment ever like I was going through Cash Money Millionaire music videos like there was no tomorrow. Honestly I loved the old Cash Money they were soooo greezy! Man o Man I'm telling you the '90s were a happier time for me.







Good Times :)

Artist Spotlight: Wolf J & KJ

If you know me well you know that I hate any music that comes out of toronto unless it's r&b because some rappers either don't know what they are doing or trying to fit into the American facade. I loathe that foolishness, but as of late alot of people have been putting me on to a lot of great musicians, and it made me think for a second Drake has done the one single thing that many other Toronto artists can't do shine a light on our city and have us Torontonians have some pride in our muscians. But going on I have found two great artists one by the name of Wolf J and the other by the name of KJ. So let me get into this spotlight thang :


Wolf J [Upsidedown Day] [website: www.wolfj.com]
Honestly the way I found this guy was when I was facebook creeping (I'm telling you one of these days I will be getting into trouble with my antics) he had posted a link on of my friend's pages and I decided to go check his stuff out. Well I didn't initially creep Wolf's facebook but instead I downloaded the link to his mixtape. That was probably the smartest thing I have done in a very long time because his mixtape was something serious I loved it to pieces from the production to his lyrical world play (I love metaphors after all I'm an english major) and the uber-interesting song titles (how can I forget the title of the mixtape its called Upside Down Day Tapemix [he is way too cool for school]). Some of my favourite songs on that mixtape are Cut Fab, Cufflink Tears, Wack MCs, & Backpack Dreams (if anybody understood how I LOVE this song) but nonetheless this mixtape is sooooo worth the download. Not to mention I had the great pleasure of meeting him at Shannon Boodram's book launch of Laid, very nice and humble guy and you can tell that he takes his craft seriously and appreciates the love that he gets from his fans. But before I stop I will share some tidbits about Mr. Wolf:
--he is also a videographer and a graphic designer
--he writes and he sings (clearly this man is artistically inclined)
--and this is where you can download his mixtape: http://www.zshare.net/download/650711153173050f/


KJ [A Breath of Fresh Heir][website: www.myspace.com/kjmusiconline]
Hmm what can I say about him other than I love him OMG this dude is the truth as well. When it comes to that old school dj primo produced boom bap rhyme flow he has it. His presentation of his flow honestly takes me back to a time in the early 90s where it meant something to have lyrical ability and it was embraced (I don't know about music now these days but that can be debated at another time). How I discovered KJ was when I was listening to Wolf's mixtape and I was like hmmm I like this dude too let me go see what he's all about. I think I facebook creeped Wolf at this point and found KJ's myspace and downloaded his mixtape from there. Once again I was not disappointed this mixtape was organic in the sense that everything seemed so natural and it seemed so right. Like when I say KJ has a mean rhyme scheme like I mean this dude puts it down when he is rapping. Not to mention superb production and a great concept (his mixtape is called A Breath of Fresh Heir, crazy play on words). But yea some of my favourite songs on that mixtape are: K Goes South, Repeat (people need to check out the remix with Slakah the Beatchild, Media Market and that's just to name a few. But like Wolf J's mixtape such a great listen. But before I end off here are som tidbits:
--he not only is a rapper but he is also a producer
--he is also into self production (so yes he produces his own music)
--he was also raised in England and relocated in Canada when he was 11
--download his mixtape: http://www.zshare.net/download/610346355f03dfa8/

To tell you the truth I am only scratching the surface by highlighting these two artists because there are so many homegrown artists that are out there such as: Black Carrington, Rich Kidd, Jordhanna, T.Ana Cole, Kim Davis, Brendan Phillip, Scribblez, Ace Loc a.k.a. Champion [who by the way is a good friend of mine] and the list goes on literally! I will be actually be spotlighting them real soon. But once again I suggest that everybody takes a listen to their mixtapes because they are contributing to the future of our city when it comes to music, and so far I am LOVING what I am hearing. Anywho I will be leaving you with some quotes from both artists!

"I Like Nice Things, And I Get Them Because I Can Afford Them/When I Was Your Age I Didn't Own A Pair of Jordans Ralph Lauren/I Was Out Saucing To Find The Logos/Dr. Fleas Where I Would Go So To Get My Look Alike/Kind of Like/Sort of Like/Kind of Clothes"--Media Market, KJ From The Mixtape Breath of Fresh Heir

"The Puppy Has Been Asleep And Now The Wolf Has Been Awaken/And There Is A Rumble In The Jungle/And I Can Feel The Earth Quakin"--Backpack Dreams, Wolf J From The Upsidedown Day Mixtape

Book Review: Laid Edited By Shannon Boodram

Well I am not done for the night I think I suffer from insomnia but whatever it is the life of a University student ugh! But I have some more things to write. . .

I think about a week ago I went to a book launch party for a book called Laid that was composed and edited by a girl named Shannon Boodram. To tell you the truth the reason why I even knew about this book was because I was facebook creeping and I came across the event page and decided to check it out. When I went to the event page and I saw the website for the book, that's when I realized that this was something big plus Kim Davis was performing and Tika Simone was hosting so you know I was interested. So during that time I found about the event I started reading the blog for the book and I was intrigues. Now let's fast forward to the book launch. For those who were there I think we can all agree that it was an A-MAZ-ING night just wonderful plus food and entry was free, who could pass up? Now mind you at this point I haven't read the book, but from reading the blog and listening to excerpts that were being read by different contributors in the book at the party I was sooo excited to see what this book entailed.

Well since I was broke (momentarily) my big sis Steph B (love you mama) decided to buy the book for me with the promise that I would pass it on to others. So of course I agreed but I think at that moment I still didn't understand the magnitude of the book. So she bought my book and I got it signed by shannon herself (tehehehehe) and as sooon as I got home I began to read it and this is my verdict:

IT IS THE MOST INTRIGUING, INFORMATIONAL, EDUCATIONAL, AND RELATABLE book on SEX, yes the book is about SEX, that I have ever read in my whole ENTIRE life (but then again I have only been living for 19 years). Honestly, this book is so well rounded because not only does it deal with trying to educate many people about the ups and downs of sex but it takes it from a relatable standpoint. I know you are probably reading this and saying wtf when I say relatable, well let me tell you this book is not wholey written by Shannon but this book contains stories from many different people in North America that deal with so many aspects of sex. It talks about the dangers of having unprotected sex, hookups, abstinence and virginity, rape and abuse, and even the good things about sex and how it can bring some type of emotional glee if gone about it in the right way. ALL of these stories are true accounts from many people between the ages of 18-25 (including Shannnon) all over North Americ. The reason why I love this book so much is that many of these stories don't take on the role of being a "cautionary tale" or what have you, but brings you into the person's world and allows you to draw your own conclusions.

Another great aspect of this book is that after each chapter there is a Q&A not only with Shannon but with some of the other participants in the book about that chapter and there are little activities that give you a chance to channel your own experiences. I personally think think that this book needs to be implemented into many highschools and middle schools and probably universities and colleges because I feel that we need to educate ourselves on sex and stop treating it either like a glamorous life or being hush hush about it because even though there are many contraceptives and educational facts it's still not doing enough to help bring down the statistics of rape, pregnancies, and STDs. Also because there are not enough people sharing their thoughts and experiences with the younger generation or even our friends we are still being caught in a vicious cycle where we think we know but have no idea.

To say that this book is going to be the answer to alot of the problems sex can bring upon the youth would be a far stretch but I think with this book being out there it brings about an open conversation where curiosity can be embraced instead of being quieted and good information can be passed along to those who don't know but are too afraid to ask. This book right here can probably stop alot of heartache and bad decisions because some of the mistakes have already been done so there is no need for another person to go through it but at the same time it can also show the good qualities of sex and learning how to say no even when it gets tough. But most importantly having respect not only for yourself and your body, but for your sexuality as well.

This Book Can Be Bought At Chapters and I think it is $20.00, so pick yourself up a copy because this book will make you cry, laugh, happy, and scared but at the same time will educate you



Thank You Shannon For Being Brave :)

P.S.:It's not everyday a woman releases a book about sexuality, especially a women of bi-racial background !

Speak Your Mind, But Hold That Thought! (Read The Book As Well)

A Piece of Me

It is about 1:20 in the morning and I don't know why I am up but clearly I have some things on my mind so maybe I should discuss it on my blog and see where this note takes me:

I tend to notice that I make a lot of stupid mistakes and some of them I know I can avoid, to sit here and go through my mistakes is irrelevant but I feel that they are so I must acknowledge them. My mistakes are sometimes trivial or life altering but nonetheless they are still mistakes, and it's because of these mistakes and choices that I have decided to make has turned me into a mute at certain times. Alot of people think that I am a very opinionated girl, outspoken, very loud, or what have you. Yes in some certain circumstances they are true, but I think my big personality sometimes can be a deterrent to how I want to be seen and believe me my big mouth gets me into alot of trouble. But more recently I feel like the personality that I display is not me, but instead is a facade or a front to just cover up all the things that I am feeling. I remember starting this blog just to add a quirky opinion to things in life that either disturbed me, made me happy or probably didn't have any relevance, but as I sit here I don't know why I am even doing this blog. My confidence in myself has never been the most stable but as of recent I feel like everything is crumbling in front of my eyes. Sometimes I don't know whether or not it's because I am "nonchalant" or because I don't know how to confront my feelings, but I feel like I can't do anything and I always feel like I am stuck in one position.

I think about alot of things and most of the time I think that I will drive myself right into the mad house because I have never been able to relax. I second guess myself alot of the time and I sell myself short as well. I wish I could say that I am happy but that's a far stretch, but I can say most days I am pretty content (but that's subjective). I don't know when I have ever stopped to just enjoy life because half of the time I am too drunk or too consumed in my own shit to really have fun. My vices that I promised wouldn't consumed me has now become apart of my life, and I don't want to be that girl that has to turn to her vices for that momentary satisfaction only to have it be taken away because my problems are still there. I haven't been one to deal with my emotions or deal with things that hurt me because I keep everything to myself. Bottled up emotions are never good but I think that I am just scared of being looked at a certain way or judged but most importantly I think I just don't like to deal with things and I'm finding more often that now it's starting to mess with me alot. I feel myself drowning sometimes because its a wave of emotions that keep coming in and because I don't know how to deal with things I just keep sinking lower and lower.

I don't even know why I am writing this thing because no matter how much I write I don't think this deficiency to react or be expressive will ever happen. But I don't know this poem can sum up in a nutshell how I feel sometimes:

My Reflection
I Look In the Mirror And I See A Face
Staring Back At Me Flaws & All
Sometimes I Wish I Could Trade Its Place
And Be Trapped In The Reflection
So Someone Else Can Dictate My Direction
I Look At My Dark Skin, Brown Eyes, And Full Lips
And All I Can Obsess About Is The Wanting of More Hips
The Tone Of My Skin Being Too Dark
And Eyes So Deep & Dull They Leave No Mark
Why When I Look In The Mirror I Am Not Appeased
At The Reflection That's A Spitting Image of Me
Why Am I Scared To Approve of Myself
While, Constantly Searching Acceptance From Everyone Else
My Reflection Knows Me Better Than Anyone
Those Eyes Stare Into Mine & Touches My Soul
A Reality So Chilling To The Bone
I Am She & She Is Me
My Reflection: Who I Am & What I See